I just want to hear to loud music and control my emotions.
I need to sacrifice everything for my own good.
I must &i have to.
I just don't want myself to be control by someone.
I don't want to statues myself yet.
I don't really have the mood to do anything or think of anything.
I'm just worried about my future.
Hello People!
Sorry for not updating for a few weeks.
It's been a very busy day for me.
Many problems at home, busy working and stuffs.
This year, i'm in ITE Bukit Batok.
Luckily the same school as Shasya, Fazil, Nuzul, Hassan &Fadzlee.
Unfortunately, i was seperated from them to other classes.
Well, it felt very odd &strange when there are many strangers around.
But luckily, i smiled &make friends with Lala, the girl who i used to smile at her in the bus.
She's sitting just right beside me.
Days of knowing the other girls too, we kept close with each other.
Lidya's the Chinese Indonesian girl from Hong Kah Secondary.
Sithi's the Monitor in our class from Greenridge Secondary.
Rila/Lala is the Commonwealth Secondary girl that always smile when we saw in the bus.
Now we're in the computer lab.
Lala sitting beside me, Sithi sitting behind Lala, Lidia sitting beside Sithi.
Tadaaa! (:
It's been weeks since i didn't met BabyMok.
Yesterday i met him &Badol at Yew Tee Mac.
I don't know what's wrong with me that night.
Everytime he talks to me, i would shout at him.
Whenever he cud me, i would be mad at him.
WITHOUT REASON?
I'm not sure.
Whatever he used to do to me, i hate it.
I'm speechless.
When he shouted at me &explain why he wanted to left me.
It's because he observe the changes in me.
When i got home yesterday, he called me up.
&said that he actually don't want to let me go.
He said that i've been punishing him when i'm avoiding him.
I said to him i want a time-out.
Mie, don't worry about my relationship. You have to worry about schools. But, thanks for helping on my relationship anyway. I think i and him are giving up on our relationship. So soon there'll be no more INAMIN, i think. I love him. But i don't know why somehow i hate him. I miss you, i love you. Study hard tao.
Shasya, terima kasih sebab teman Ketot pergi maner2. And thanks for your advises. Good luck to you &Wan. Harap satu hari akan terjadi untuk aper yang Shasya nak. Shasya, if ever i offended you or something, tell me eh. I'm still thinking about that time you say to me. I love you.
I need a time out, please.
